2015 :)

2 more weeks to the end of 2015. This year is a kinda different year to me,one of the reason is I had started college life after leaving my high school.What I can conclude about 2015 is, I gain while I am losing something. 

After the night with few of my high school buddies, I think about what we had discussed about.Yeah, those who we were close with during high school may not be the one who are close with us after we graduated.While those who seems to be not so close with us last time, miracally become our close friends.Hence, I said, I lost and gain. 

I learnt how to love my family, friends and him. I am glad that I can be courageous to fight for what I want,and finally, I had changed my evasive attitude towards relationship. Things that I dare not to think about it previously,I can now talk to others about it frankly. 

2015 has not been an easy year for me.Enduring stressful life, adapting new environment,learning to be tough and independent, etc.These are things that I had been through in 2015.These could be tough, but at least I grow. 

Last but not least, hope that everyone who I love,will stay happy and healthy always. :)

Frustrated

Why for most of the time the efforts that I have made will all be in vain? 

I always did extra stuff that others did not do it yet I can't get what I deserved to have it.

Just feel so frustrated with this

Persistent

 So I am having my semester test now,

yeah I know it's not a right time to update my blog now 

but too much of feeling to be expressed after today's test.

Big big sighs that I screw up both bio and chemistry paper.

I used to do well in chemistry but now...

the worst thing was there is one question appeared in my monthly test before,

I got it correct for monthly test but screw up during this semester test.

SHIT right. 

Biology, I regret for taking it since few months ago.

I am one who likes bio and I hate memorizing things nowadays.

But then, the decision has been made and nothing could be change.

I feel like giving up A level, but I know I shouldn't.

No matter how bad is my grade, perhaps I should just stay?

Last time I even get 50+ for additional math, but I end up maintaining

90+ throughout Form 5.

Where's my determination? Where's my courage?

Where have they been?? 

I just hope that one day, they will come back to me. 

Decisions.

January had ended and here comes the second Sunday of February.

In a twinkling of an eye, I have started my college life for one month. 

So, I have adapted to my new life gradually as I have a bunch of monkey friends in the same class with me. College life isn't that boring anymore.

I can feel the bond between the everyone in the class. :) 

But life isn't that perfect right? 

There are still stuff that makes me unhappy sometimes, yeah. 

Learning how to accept those unhappiness with an open heart.

Apparently I am someone who can laugh easily,

but I am not a person who can be happy easily. 

Overthinking kills me. :) 

Worrying about the stuff that haven't happen is stupid right?

But I just can't stop myself being such a jerk. 

I miss how things used to be. 

Turning point.

It had been a week in college.

So, new life, new friends, new place, new environment.

After going to college, only I realise how much I miss my high school life.

But, yeah, life still goes on right?

What I can do, is just to motivate myself, adapt to the new environment ASAP.

However, I realize some changes in myself.

During high school, I used to be the noisy one.

I laugh like mad lady, talk like crazy girl.

I hardly could laugh loudly like last time.

Just hoping that I can socialize more TT

I am not that kind of shy person but I just can't understand what happen to me omfg.

I love to talk and walk around and what am i doing now/