One Step Closer.

It's the 2nd week of September now, symbolizing my so called "holiday" is coming to the end in around one and a half month. Talk about my A-level's results, it was released on 11th of August. Guess what? It turned up to be much more better than my expectation. I expected 2A2B but surprisingly I scored 2A*2A. I am relieved and glad that all my hard works paid off. After the results is released, it's time to decide what undergraduate degree I should pursue. 

So.. Yeah. I have chosen Bachelor of Business and Commerce. Some of my friends and relatives were quite shocked with my decision initially, as I am a pure science student since Form 4. It takes me time to make this decision too. Giving up on something that you're used to it for all the time and choosing a course that you're not familiar with needs some courage. I am afraid that I will be filled with remorse in future for giving up on science. However, after thinking twice, I decided to proceed with an art undergraduate course. 

I've been thinking a lot about my future university life recently. Wondering who will I meet? Do I like the environment? Can I adapt with it? Can I still meet friends who are as lovely as Sixteen and my college baes? This time, I am alone again. Facing the new environment myself. I am an outgoing person, but somehow I am afraid of adapting to new environment. Zhixin accompany me when I was in MCKL, hence I was not that afraid by that time. However, I remember that I was also alone when I just stepped in my secondary school. I still managed to get a bunch of great friends afterwards. Hope that by telling myself this, I can be less worry about this issue. 

No matter how, I will still enjoy my holiday first! Be happy and no worries! 

All my baes. 

First.

It has been one and half month since my final paper of A Level. For this whole month, I am working as a daycare + tuition teacher at a daycare centre. Okay, I admit that I had overestimate myself before that. I thought I can handle primary students well, but the fact shows that I can't (currently). Anyhow, I will still try to improve myself as a teacher.

Sometimes it's quite stressful because I am teaching the standard six and standard five students for most of the time. Standard six student are going to sit for their major examination, UPSR in approximately two months time but one or two of them still can't master some particular subjects. This is what makes me headache always. 

All the standard six students are boys and hence, they are being playful in the class. Controlling them isn't an easy job as part of the reason I think is because of my petite size. Secondly, I have to put myself in their shoes and think like them. I need to figure out what method should I use to let them finish their work without procrastinating in my class. Forcing doesn't  work as they are already twelve and they won't get controlled by you  easily. However, it's undeniable that sometimes they are quite hilarious too. The way they talk, the jokes they tell make me burst in laughter. 

While for the girls, as usual, being obedient and hardworking student. They will just finish the work I assigned most of the time. But they often complain to me that they have lots of homework given by school teachers and begging for lesser tuition work. I won't push them so hard like how I push those boys as they are only standard five this year.

Basically, this is my first month of working experience as a teacher. Hope that I can improve on myself as a teacher for the following few months and also can have stronger bond with those evil kids Muahahaha! 

MCKL :)

 2/1/2015, I started my new stage of life in Methodist College Kuala Lumpur (MCKL). I had chosen A-Level as the course to pursue after SPM and MCKL is the place where I decided to spend my one and half year there. 

If you ask me whether did I regret for taking A-Levels, my answer will be a definite yes.I just can say that either I've overestimate myself or underestimate A-Levels. Waking up every morning to study during exam period isn't fun at all :( But if you ask me whether did I regret for going MCKL, NO. I didn't regret. :) Especially I've met my baes. I think what the lecturer told us during orientation day is correct, we can make friends for life in MCKL. 

It's undeniable that I have difficulty in adapting myself for the first few months in college. New environment, new lecturers, new friend. Everything is new to me. All of us are not close with each other yet, hence there are limited topics between us. Until I met them: Yee Shen(Bun), Jia Wei and Wei Fang (*tgt with Zhixin) 

We had become close friends as we had knew each other more. 

This is the picture taken when we're not so close yet :)

End of February, our class went for the orientation camp. This camp was one of the most relaxing camp I had ever been. The bond between our class had become stronger afterwards. :)

*loves* 

In a twinkling of an eye, this 18 months programme is coming to the end soon. I feel grateful and blessed that I've you guys by my side through the ups and downs in MCKL.Going through the stressful monthly test and trials and actual exams,I couldn't have gone through these by myself without you guys beside me. 

Four of us. 

With the boys (noisemaker)

Isaac, Lie Sheng, Jiunn Ming and Zong Yi(who is not in the picture), although  4 of you always make noise in the class,but still thanks to you guys for making us laugh like mad sometimes.Without you guys, our lecture will be boring.

With our math lecturer, Miss Ho. 

With our chemistry lecturer, Mr Lee. 

With our physics lecturer, Mr Naggappan. 

Last but not least, here comes my favourite lecturer-----biology lecturer, Miss Yee.

with the girls.

Introducing my deskmate for Sem 3: Bun She's cute, crazy, funny, caring, chubby, innocent and etc.Thanks for being so crazy with me always.Annoys you during class has become one of my hobby now. 

Bullying you has become part of my college life! I will miss your U-Mobile after entering Uni. I love you! 

Wei Fang, as what you say,it's glad to meet you in MCKL again after graduating from primary school.We have know each other for 12 years! We didn't talk much during primary school but suprisingly we had become close friend in college.Don't miss my teasing too much, you will still get friends to tease you in Uni. 

Jia Wei, she looks quiet, but once you're close with her, you will realise that she's not at all. Haha. 

Pls protect yourself in future when we're not beside you. You've trained us to become a good boyfriend candidates because you're a typical girlfriend candidate. :P Hoping to see you transform into a tougher girl. 

Zi Lim, we only become close after Semester 1 as we're in different class and we could hardly have common break time during Sem 1. You're a typical sleepyhead in the morning. Pls don't sleep so late la. Not good for your health wey. Study hard for A2, no more slacking ya. 

Lastly. Nv shen group?Hahaha. Just kidding. It's great to know you Shirley :) I will miss your 38ness. And Sherlyn Wong, glad to meet you in MCKL again after primary school. Will be missing morning talk with you when I just reached college.

Wishing all of us can score flying colour results in our A-levels! 

2015 :)

2 more weeks to the end of 2015. This year is a kinda different year to me,one of the reason is I had started college life after leaving my high school.What I can conclude about 2015 is, I gain while I am losing something. 

After the night with few of my high school buddies, I think about what we had discussed about.Yeah, those who we were close with during high school may not be the one who are close with us after we graduated.While those who seems to be not so close with us last time, miracally become our close friends.Hence, I said, I lost and gain. 

I learnt how to love my family, friends and him. I am glad that I can be courageous to fight for what I want,and finally, I had changed my evasive attitude towards relationship. Things that I dare not to think about it previously,I can now talk to others about it frankly. 

2015 has not been an easy year for me.Enduring stressful life, adapting new environment,learning to be tough and independent, etc.These are things that I had been through in 2015.These could be tough, but at least I grow. 

Last but not least, hope that everyone who I love,will stay happy and healthy always. :)

Frustrated

Why for most of the time the efforts that I have made will all be in vain? 

I always did extra stuff that others did not do it yet I can't get what I deserved to have it.

Just feel so frustrated with this

Persistent

 So I am having my semester test now,

yeah I know it's not a right time to update my blog now 

but too much of feeling to be expressed after today's test.

Big big sighs that I screw up both bio and chemistry paper.

I used to do well in chemistry but now...

the worst thing was there is one question appeared in my monthly test before,

I got it correct for monthly test but screw up during this semester test.

SHIT right. 

Biology, I regret for taking it since few months ago.

I am one who likes bio and I hate memorizing things nowadays.

But then, the decision has been made and nothing could be change.

I feel like giving up A level, but I know I shouldn't.

No matter how bad is my grade, perhaps I should just stay?

Last time I even get 50+ for additional math, but I end up maintaining

90+ throughout Form 5.

Where's my determination? Where's my courage?

Where have they been?? 

I just hope that one day, they will come back to me. 

Decisions.

January had ended and here comes the second Sunday of February.

In a twinkling of an eye, I have started my college life for one month. 

So, I have adapted to my new life gradually as I have a bunch of monkey friends in the same class with me. College life isn't that boring anymore.

I can feel the bond between the everyone in the class. :) 

But life isn't that perfect right? 

There are still stuff that makes me unhappy sometimes, yeah. 

Learning how to accept those unhappiness with an open heart.

Apparently I am someone who can laugh easily,

but I am not a person who can be happy easily. 

Overthinking kills me. :) 

Worrying about the stuff that haven't happen is stupid right?

But I just can't stop myself being such a jerk. 

I miss how things used to be.